10. Self Made Self Hate

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Lyrics:

I stare at the mirror but it won't reflect

Just a blur of a face I haven't met yet

Second guessing every breath I take

Every move feels fake every smile's a mistake

I'm stitched together with apologies

But they unravel in my eulogies

The battle's been staged

But the fury's engaged

This mask this mask is a cage

I wear out of rage

I smile like I mean it

But I'm breaking underneath

I talk like I've seen it

But I'm barely still believing

I look like I'm shining

But I'm fading in between

I walk like I'm sure but I'm hollow inside

Confidence is just a costume I hide

Every win feels like a borrowed lie

Every truth I speak gets weaponized

I'm drowning in the noise I made

Trying to silence what I can't evade

The battle's been staged

But the fury's engaged

This mask this mask is a cage

I wear out of rage

I smile like I mean it

But I'm breaking underneath

I talk like I've seen it

But I'm barely still believing

I look like I'm shining

But I'm fading in between

Self made self hate I suffocate

Every thought I fabricate

Second guess I oscillate

Confidence evaporates

Shadows crawl and permeate

Echoes twist and implicate

Dreams decay disintegrate

No escape I cultivate

Chains I drag they consecrate

Scars I mark and annotate

Faith erodes I desecrate

I'm the void you venerate

Shattered thoughts accumulate

Breath is sharp I suffocate

Serpent tongues that agitate

Sanity evaporates

I'm the mirror that doesn't reflect

I'm the face that time regrets

I'm the tree without a breeze

I'm the wound that always bleeds

This mask this mask

This mask this mask

This mask this mask

This mask this mask

I wear out of rage